Sad

Sad again tonight. I have not gone to visit mom in 2 days due to depression and no sleep. I was just too loopy to drive and didn't want to ask anyone else to take me. Mom didn't answer when I called. She read the messages I sent her but didn't answer. Kim said she went to see mom a few hours ago and mom slept for hours. Kim went to kiss her goodnight and mom woke up and asked Kim to sleep with her. Of course the bed is too small and it's a nursing home so she couldn't stay (Kim often slept with her at home to watch her throughout the night). Kim said mom said I don't go see her much. All of this broke my heart because I've not really been good about visiting like I should. Later, I will be with mom. Sleep or no sleep.