Compassion

Over the weekend, I read an obituary in the local paper regarding a woman from Mississippi who had died in a house fire along with her two dogs. I felt myself feeling some of the same emotions that I felt when the same happened to Anna and her Pug, Tadpole. I know her family, friends, and her husband were devastated by this. There's just something so traumatic about a house fire and having suddenly lost someone that you just saw the day before. I cannot even describe the feeling. I felt such compassion for those she left behind.

Sad

Sad again tonight. I have not gone to visit mom in 2 days due to depression and no sleep. I was just too loopy to drive and didn't want to ask anyone else to take me. Mom didn't answer when I called. She read the messages I sent her but didn't answer. Kim said she went to see mom a few hours ago and mom slept for hours. Kim went to kiss her goodnight and mom woke up and asked Kim to sleep with her. Of course the bed is too small and it's a nursing home so she couldn't stay (Kim often slept with her at home to watch her throughout the night). Kim said mom said I don't go see her much. All of this broke my heart because I've not really been good about visiting like I should. Later, I will be with mom. Sleep or no sleep. 

Funk n Roll by Prince

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On Death

Something I wrote. 

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Advice

I suppose the wisest piece of advice my mom and boyfriend tell me is to never worry about what other's think and to remove people from my life that do or say hurtful things. 

The Dangers of Selfies

It's really strange to find out what people do with the selfies we post on social networks. I usually only post selfies of my face because I'm self conscious. I post a lot of selfies though and I often think I shouldn't post any. A friend of mine photoshopped a couple of photos of mine without asking once. He changed my lipstick and hair color to pink. He made the other look like a character from Avatar. I liked what he did but it made me realize that people can take our photos and do whatever they want with them and we'd never know it. 

I was really creeped out when a man told me he was using one of my selfies as the background on his cell phone. I thought....why??? I'm not a model. I'm not famous. I don't think of myself as all that attractive. I kindly asked him to not use my photos for personal reasons and told me to, "take it up with Facebook".  That infuriated me. I blocked him. 

A while back a couple of men used my photos to make creative collages of my face with hearts and doves and crap.  They did so without my permission and I really didn't want my image in such unoriginal works of "art". 

Today I was shocked to discover a friend posted one of my selfies on his Twitter account. Once again, I though "why?".  This is a married man. I'm sure his wife would like to know "why?" as well. I'm hoping he meant to share a photo of Scottie's art and just chose the wrong image. 

All of this makes me realize that nothing we post belongs to us. Once it's public people think they can do what they want. They can photoshop our faces onto naked bodies or onto people doing questionable things. They can glorify, make fun of, or do nasty thinks with our images. Just think what all they can do with our words. 

More About Prince At Essence Fest

I was told by someone who had flown in from Oregon that her flight was full of people flying in to New Orleans to see Prince.  Their flight was delayed but at no time did anyone get upset.  They stayed calm.  :-)